July 26, 1994

My testimony as of right now, and I write this entry on 7/26 @ 9:30 is: The Church is true. Throughout my mission, I have made some of the same mistakes that plagued me before my mission. No, the mission unfortunately is not a vacuum. But, I feel as if I am doing my best to repent, and yet that truly isn't enough. Lately, I have been bombarded with notes, quotes, books, stories of how to improve myself, my spirituality, my mind. My knowledge of the gospel is strong, testimony unshaken. I seek for the Spirit of excitement and determination I displayed before my mission and at the MTC every day. Certainly and admittedly I have grown, and I have learned much more these last 10 months, and now I feel so confident and better than ever, but this mission has been a very demanding and difficult test. I plead for Heavenly Father's love. I have the desires most young do at this age and my weaknesses morally have been a battle, but, I know that they have been bridled. I know they have been garnished. I am strong. I love the Lord!

7/26 - Again we tracted in the morning; today in Erma. And at 2pm, almost as if it were on schedule, we got another nasty lightning / thunderstorm. We made our phone contacts during the rain. UPS, (a.k.a. "Brown Santa") delivered a box from Grandma T which included this pen I am writing with, an El Cerrito shirt, 3 pr. of some outdated pants, and food. 

Home taught the Kesslers w/Al Ruthenbeck. Talked to Sister Roberts about her marriage problems and committed her to call Pres. Adams. Tomorrow is P-day!